For the Love of SELF

I don't cheer you up cause of you, it is for me. Yes, I am a very selfish person and the elation in your voice is what brightens my day up. I would go out of the way, be someone I'm not to get you in such spirits; anything to make you sound better.

The love and connection we share is pure and absolute but know it, I'm not here for you neither you're here for me but we're here for our mere selves. We work through stuff for our very existence, not for each other. Accept it or deny it, the only reason we make each other happy is because we want to feel happiness channeling through each other. It keeps us under the illusion that what we're doing is for the love of one another or even sometimes for the love of GOD; remember it always is for the love of self, no one else.

.."waiting for you my dear"

What impression do you think you're making? Do I look stupid enough or are you that lame? What is wrong with people these days, if someone of the opposite gender follows you on twitter it's not because they want to hook up with you (maybe in some cases yeah but not mostly). 

Brought up in a very liberal Muslim family, never been restricted to the traditional ambiguous values of the society yet as a Muslim i realize what the future would be of these moral-less relations. It's not that I do not want to be loved, or I do not enjoy attention, COME ON who doesn't ! But that doesn't mean we forsake our identity. 

Sometimes a clearer vision makes no sense either.

Things We Do

If you say you love anyone, be it someone special or a family member you are proclaiming a duty you have towards them. The duty to put forth their desires before yours; just some responsibility you take on yourself to try keeping them happy always. It is a commitment you’ve made with self and the only one, who checks upon it, is you, leaving no escapes.

So whatever you’re doing is to justify your promise to self, it is about your own satisfaction more than their happiness. Things sometimes turn according to plan while go in the opposite course most of the time; what we do is blame that person when we fail. Truth be told, they are unconcerned of our actions; they had no idea what we have had in store for them all along. How could we possibly blame them then? Plans if known to them change the entire picture but that rarely happens since we all love surprises. So yeah, don’t blame your loved ones for your mistakes.