Sunday, December 11, 2011

Need You Now

So there is this song 'need you now' by lady antebellum it has topped world's charts so I'm pretty sure you all have heard it or of it.

In the lyrics antebellum at a point says, "I'd rather hurt than feeling nothing at all..." A year ago, I though what crazy thing is this lady talking about! Who wants pain? Hurting is no good, it shatters a person; who wants to be in pain? I knew what pain was, how it left you, how helpless you feel. I even posted a status about it quoting antebellum and disagreeing saying, "I'd rather feel nothing at all than hurt." A passing by angel must have shared my thought with Almighty, who decided to give me taste of what I had asked for.

There have been broken hearts and reunions and even though it has been a year of repetition of history, I can see a drastic change in self. I am not the same person anymore. I'm cold and sensitive at the same time. I can feel others' pain and walk past them without stumbling. I'm not even sure how that's possible, but I guess I'm on the verge of transforming completely into a cold hearted person from a sensitive and caring one. It is sad, awfully sad state that you see your loved ones suffer and you walk past their suffering and you don’t even want to help them out. It makes me feel guilty how could I possibly be so insensitive? Doing all for self but not pausing for an instance to help anybody be it a stranger or beloved. There is emptiness inside; every moment I realize how I don’t feel anything when I should be; the hole deepens reminding that something is missing. 

So yeah, after some experience I agree to what lady antebellum said...

Saturday, December 10, 2011

A memory

That awkward moment when you're not sure what you miss the moment, that moment or the people in that moment.

Best Friends

                          You see your best friend walk past the hallway flashing you smile but not stopping for an instance, even to ask how you have been; you start to wonder if things are the same or not anymore. Has your friend found some better friend than yourself or did you do something utterly wrong which hurt their feelings? Whose fault is it, the question rambles your mind. But what you can actually do about it, not much though but...You could go up to them and ask if everything is alright, alright in their life, alright in your friendship. This shall lead you to two trails, either they would tell you how busy they’ve been and it has nothing to do with you and start babbling their latest, or they’ll say something is wrong but they don’t really want to talk about it, so you’d have to wish them luck and set off.

                          This was today, but do you know what happens tomorrow? The one who shared that very instant has the same feelings as yesterday leaving things the same as they’ve always been; however, with the friend who didn’t want to talk about it things shall keep on changing, they shall not want to talk to you about anything for a long time and during this whole time for some reason they shall choose to blame you.